Decisions

I have the worst time making up my mind. The worst time!! I was seriously just thinking today that I miss my short hair. I miss it dearly, but I've wanted long hair all summer long. I think I have the worst time making up my mind because it's simply always changing. I am constantly jumping from one idea to the next, and I really need to learn how to drop this habit. It inhibits my figuring things out, but sometimes I really don't know what to with myself. This is probably the main factor that contributes to my hyper anxiety issues (I made that term up a little, but seriously I got that) and why I always lose sleep over stupid things. I wouldn't lose sleep over my hair necessarily, but I do have a hard time sleeping when I'm nervous about stuff. So what should it be, short or long hair? Story of my life!
I do have to say that I was able to figure out my major and that whole situation. I'm sticking with education! But I'm switching from secondary to elementary education. I want to teach the younger kiddos. I definitely think that's what I'm meant to do. I recently had a parent teacher conference simulation in my education communication class, and it was an amazing experience. I was unbelievably nervous about how it would turn out. I didn't want to say the wrong thing or handle the situation badly. Well, I rocked it! And at the end, it felt completely right. When it was all said and done, I felt like that's exactly what I should do. I should teach and make a difference. I will make my mark on this world and better it by being an awesome teacher. I want to have kids come back and say how much they learned from and loved my class. I want to help students achieve their goals, because that is now my main goal in life. I want to help people. And I'm pretty sure I've known this my entire life, but it took awhile to figure it all out. A very long and winding road finally got me here and I'm so happy. I'm meeting with my advisor on Wednesday and finalizing everything. I can't wait to start preparing for my future!