Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Meh. Bah. Bleh. Wah.

I am in the most blah mood ever today. I really don't even know what to think right now, other than I have no idea what I want to do with my life. And I'm really scared about that one. Can someone just make the decision for me? Education or psychology. You would think the decision would be quite clear, but oh boy is it not. I really can't decide, and I really hate it. I hate that I have to choose between two things that I seem to love. I'm the type of person (type A personality sometimes) who needs to have everything figured out before it's too late. I want to do so much with my life before I get old, but what's a girl to do without a career? All the other things I want to do will be determined by how and when I get that diploma. I can't get married and have kids before I have established myself in the workforce. I wont have any money to do those things. How can I travel and adopt a puppy without the means to pay for it all? I just can't make the decision between education or psychology. Grad school for my PhD or teach young minds. Lots of money or little money. Live in my hometown or move away. I honestly have no idea what to do and making that decision while I'm so young just doesn't seem fair. How am I supposed to know what I'd like to be doing in two-three years? I can't predict my future and what I'll be interested in then. Gosh this totally sucks, and I wish I had some direction. Help!

2 comments:

  1. hey, don't worry about the money. it shouldn't be the deciding factor. the most important thing is what do you LOVE doing? what can you see yourself doing for the rest of your life and being HAPPY? what gives you the most options?

    make a pro/con list! seriously, that's my advice. write down everything you think of. and just listen to what your heart is telling you. yeah, I really just said that. but you know yourself, you know what you want, you're a strong person and I know that you'll be great at whatever you do.

    just don't freak out or feel blah! because it's good to have choices! you're in college, this is the place to find out! you have time to choose! and it'll all work out :)

    love you!
    -kait

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  2. thank you so much girl =] i can always count on you to say all the right things to make me feel better. this is why you're my best friend

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