I've been working on something

And that something is loving myself more. I realized a bit ago (when I was in that really low mood for awhile) that recently I haven't been loving myself as much as I used to. I have no idea what happened! Growing up, I was raised in an environment where there was a crap ton of love. Crap ton. I'm talkin kiss attacks (yea, my parents were SO lame when I was a kid), family hugs, "kiss through the window" (don't ask, but my sister gets this), eskimo kisses, etc. Serious love up in my house, and I'm so grateful to have that type of environment. I think that's one of the reasons why I'm so close with my family, and why I am a confident young lady. And that's exactly what I am: a confident young lady. But lately, I've been struggling with this concept. I was so down in the dumps. College was stressing me to the breaking point and I was having some other issues with people in my life. Not a good combination when you're trying to love yourself. I honestly got super lost, and took it out on the totally wrong person too. Doing that made me feel even worse.
So there I was at the bottom hangin out with my self-loathing self having a grand ol' time when I finally had some sort of bounce-back epiphany. Epiphany sounds super cheesy and cliche, sorry about that, but it's for lack of a better word. Essentially I snapped out of my crazy horrible mood and bounced back to my normal self, and I feel a lot better. I'm loving myself again, and not in a self-centered, egomaniac sort of way. I've simply decided to not be sad about anything, anymore. Of course I wont be some emotionless droid, but I refuse to let my self-esteem decline over silly things. I love myself for everything that I have become, and there's nothing wrong with that. It took awhile to figure that out, but I'm so glad that I did. I love myself for being in college and doing something with my life when I could easily not do anything at all. I love myself for realizing and acknowledging the fact that I wasn't loving myself as much and for doing something about it. It is completely true when The Captain and Tenille said "Love, love will keep us together". Not only everyone in this world, but also you yourself.